Friday, March 25, 2011

Nurse says...


I went to my nurse midwife appointment... like I said because of my freak-out seen here. And first of all...she is fantastic! I have never had an OB/GYN doctor actually just sit and talk with me. Usually you're on the table, super uncomfortable, half-naked, and trying to get to know your doctor before they run out the room to the next patient. Nope, not here. She was extremely attentive and thorough. I loved it. She was super comforting and pretty much told me... to be patient. It's all normal, and when it isn't normal she will take action. But so far, I need to try not to worry myself. I should be getting back to my normal schedule any day now, I am not pregnant- ectopically or otherwise...and once I haven't had my period for 3 months, then it can be induced. She also checked my TSH level... because I have a thyroid situation going on-which could definitely throw off my ovulation, growing a healthy spud...etc. So she will be watching my levels closely, which is nice. I feel like she knows me better in one visit than my ENT surgeon I have been meeting with for a year now. She also understood how stressful it must be to want to try to get pregnant...and we just can't even try! I am not sure if my experience was true for all of the practitioners in the office, or if this was the difference between nurse midwives and docs. But I'm happy with my choice. She said she'd love to be my CNM for when I do get pregnant... I said I'd love to be pregnant... she said we can do that. I think it will be a great relationship. So now I just have to have a little more faith in my body that it will do what it needs to.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

modifying pants...simple & easy.

...have I mentioned how much I love my camera when once-in-a-blue-moon it takes pictures like this?!...

So in order to fit into pants, about 90% of the time, I have to modify them by adding length. I am 5'11...so when stores say "tall" on pants, its almost laughable...(or cryable depending on the day). They are almost always 5" too short. Usually pants "x-long" or "long" are 33" inseam, I have a 37.5" inseam. Buckle,  a store in the mall, usually carries two brands of jeans that do fit, which I love, but I can forget about fitting into dress pants, khakis...just not an option for me yet. So when capris came into fashion I got super excited... perfect right?! No, those are too short as well. Who wants knee-high capris?! They look just about as silly as highwater pants. Anyways, I live in jeans or my modified pants...such as these capris with a little extra fun fabric sewed to the bottom...


So needless to say I have a difficult time fitting into pajama pants and scrub pants, so I usually sew my own. But for capri pjs I like to buy a cheap pair of too-short-pants, then cut off about 5 " to make them into capris that fit.

...really not cute...

I'm always wearing bobby pins, so I stand in front of the mirror, roll up the pant leg, and place a few bobby pins where I want the hem to go, then copy it for the other side.
 ...getting better...


...my workspace...

I threw in a few pins, with the pants inside out and then removed the front portion of the machine so that I can work on only one side of the pant leg at a time. I like about 3 hem lines just for fun.

So I have to tell you... this machine...was $44 on Overstock. I used to have a super fancy, expensive machine with a ton of gadgets that quite frankly I never used and would frequently get jammed. I told my mom about my frustrations, and she bought this machine for me instead. Its simple, easy to use, and works extremely well for my simple projects. I love it. Reliably straight and zig zag...who needs anything else?! Not me.

...my new lounging pants, nothing fantastic, but they make me happy...

Monday, March 21, 2011

the in-between....


...there is something extremely definitive about a "not pregnant" instead of the lack of a red line...

So I kind of half-figured that it might take some time to be able to conceive. After all I had been on birth control pills for 8 years... but then the other half of my mind thought that perhaps I'd get pregnant right off the bat without much consideration. However, I never guessed that I'd be right in-between. Now that we have been preparing ourselves mentally, physically, and emotionally for the past 4 months... I have zero period and I am not pregnant. What the heck?! How does this happen?! 50 days sans embryo or period?! Just plain-o-lindsey. Let me tell you... it's mildly (ok, moderately) frustrating. Which I am sure doesn't help a darn thing. We are ready to get going with this spud-making...So I scheduled an appointment with my certified nurse midwife (that I ultimately want to deliver our potential spud) to have a gynie appointment, and as it turns out a pre-conception appointment all rolled into one. And hopefully we get some answers.

Now, I am proud to announce that I have a new plan... it's called... throw out the plan. No more plan, no more stress to adhere to our ideal plan, whenever it happens, it happens (and hopefully it does happen)...nursing school conflicts or not. Can they really hold me back a semester if I fulfill all of my requirements, clinicals, assignments?! Will they really not hire a qualified pregnant nursing grad?! No. That's discrimination... right?! (I hope) AND... I'm having a glass of wine with dinner until this alleged "monthly period" comes back!

Sunday, March 6, 2011

lazy sundays...


Oh how I look forward to our lazy Sundays. We have a crazy busy life this semester of school. But Sunday we can sleep in, make breakfast, clean the house, and then just be lazy. This Sunday I learned how to use my camera... here is a sneak peak at our lazy Sundays, as I sit on the floor relaxing.

...Matt playing the guitar, it calms the dogs, we all love it.I can't wait for him to play to our little spud...

...I love it when Colby puts his little arm on my leg...I pretend it's him being affectionate... he probably just wants me to stop moving...


...my wonderful husband thinking I am silly for sitting on the hard floor for over an hour, but I couldn't imagine anywhere else I'd rather be...

Saturday, March 5, 2011

logs!

When I think about toys for our kids to play with I think of natural- feel good, and ideally (but not realistically) not plastic toys. Of course this is not obtainable in today's world, especially with all of the adorable plastic toys out there, but I love the feel of real elements- like wood, glass, metal, ceramic. And I want to have less clutter in our lives, slim down the number of things but still providing wonderful learning and playing toys for our kids to enjoy their childhood...and just be kids.
When I had my own Montessori classroom I had very limited amount of plastic items. The philosophy behind it is that when a child picks up a clear, glass-looking drinking glass they feel the weight of glass, there is no misconception with light plastic that looks like glass. You give your child real pure items, that they enjoy, love, and learn to respect. Glass breaks...great! Let's work together on cleaning it up! And it probably won't happen again. They then know glass is heavy, it's breakable, and we go on with life...it's not a disaster. Lesson learned! So when I stumbled upon this adorable wood block set, of real logs I just about died. How perfect. I loved it. So when I showed it to Matt...he just didn't get it. Who wants to play with logs?! Boring!

...my idea of playing with adorable logs...


...Matt's idea of playing with logs...

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

3 year anniversary...

...the adorable card matt made for me, in a 3D camera shape...
[photo taken by my canon rebel]

We like to celebrate the first day we met... its kind of a big deal :) So that happens to be February 20th, 3 years ago. We will still celebrate our wedding day, but this date means even more to us. On our very first date it was a blind date at a sushi restaurant in Boulder, CO. We stayed all night until we noticed them putting up the chairs all around us. It was a fantastic first date, nothing ordinary. So each year we go out to sushi to celebrate our Feb 20th and to top it off matt gave me a very much wanted (but not needed) 50mm f1.8 lens for my new camera, even though I don't quite know how to use it yet I am very excited! Thus the camera-shaped card. And I gave him a very much needed 90 min. massage at a local day spa- this will be his first professional massage ever, so we will see if this was a good or bad gift.