So.... I guess there is no subtle way to put this....
I'm pregnant! or...we're pregnant... or... I have a little spud growing of our very own. We made it ourselves. It's fantastic and unbelievable actually. So this is how it all went down... a week ago...
When I was out in california helping my mom in the hospital I noticed I had a little upset stomach feeling and mainly heart burn...which I never get. I joked around that I am either pregnant or exhausted from an emotionally draining week. I just assumed it was the latter which was understandable- and pushed it out of my mind. After all... we had stopped "trying" to get pregnant (remember this silliness?!). Anyways, came back home to Idaho...enjoyed a few days with Matt...just talked about really soaking up these last few weeks of summer. On sunday we went to an amazing beer festival- in which I had entirely too much to drink (sorry spud)....still didn't even think I could be pregnant, I just felt like normal lindsey with a buzz. I had a few days of cramps...but what do I know?! I wasn't puking. Then tuesday I thought what the hell... this is when my period was supposed to be here, if I had a normal cycle (which I don't do normal- remember these posts?!)...so why not just do a pregnancy test for the fun of it?! It was the first time I really thought prego thoughts this whole month! I was really proud of myself. And here I was ruining that streak.
So tuesday morning... august 9th... I took a pregnancy test while matt was at work. It was one of those fancy ones...with a digital screen and all...and it read pregnant. Ha. Seriously?! I tilted it in all directions...thinking a little "not" would be hiding, like it usually does. But no. This time it said just pregnant. I was in shock...with a big smile on my face. I really was hoping for a pregnant result matt would have been home, but he wasn't so now I just had what felt like countless minutes to just think about it, giddiness and all...and wait. It was only about 20 minutes until I could tell him... he noticed I was acting weird right away and I walked him into the bathroom...and showed him the result. He was in shock also...but laughing and joking. Are we really ready for this?! Well, we better be. We have 9 months to figure it out.
It didn't really feel "real" even after multiple pregnancy tests. I read some of my prego books I had packed away high up on my bookshelf, we went and played disc golf...and we talked lots about how this is really happening. But we couldn't really tell people until maybe a few days?! a week?! I wanted to make sure I didn't have my period that first week. I know I can't prevent a miscarriage...if it happens, it happens, but this positive pregnancy test feels so good after so many negative ones, this excitement was worth it already. But we also don't want to jump the gun, maybe jinx ourselves?! Is that crazy? Feels crazy.
Anyways, a few days later of lots of conversations, lots of re-confirmed positive prego tests, appointments made, signing up for the daycare waiting list, making plans...we called our parents, then our siblings, then our friends. We didn't want facebook to know before our loved ones. It was a blast. To hear the excitement in the voices that mimicked ours was exhilarating and unforgetable. This made it more real. We are having a baby!
So now I have lists being made, lots of ideas to post about, and would love all of your input and advice for planning this new addition to our life. Stress-free & happy.... it's now our time to be planning for our homegrown spud. How exciting is that?!